I should have said it (A short Story)

I should have said it to her, said a boy crying and in a great sorrow deeply in love with a girl he saw across the street god knows when but the next day she was just sitting right there in his class as if she was waiting for him. (thank you god he said to himself). For him she was the girl of his dreams, beautiful in every way, her hair was blonde, smile like none other in the whole wide world, but he fell in love with the way she talked. Her voice was like the sound which you wish every time should break silence. The day when he saw her in the school it was obvious that every guy of the class would want to sit with her because of how beautiful she was but co-incidentally no one did that day. So happily he went towards her put his bag down and sat right at the the table which was just behind her. Yeah the guy was too shy to try that also. Everything was going like a dream for him tough he didn’t say a word, he was not sitting beside her but no one else was, and that was the reason he was more than happy.

Hey! came a sound in a very low voice, mellifluous but hardly listenable. Hey! again came the voice, this time loud and clear and suddenly I came out of my day dream and it was like another dream for me as the girl on the front seat turned back and said hi!. Hiiii……… said I with a surprise face. Cindy said she introducing herself. I’m Louis (LL, sounds good) You are a new student right? would you mind me giving you the school tour (stupid that’s too straight forward you’ve not introduced properly yet), NOT at all said Cindy. During the break we both went out, Cindy to take the school tour and Me for the best time in my school life. I first showed her all the classrooms, the playgrounds, all the clubs, the cafeteria and the hot spots of the school. What’s this called? asked she pointing towards the area where there was a sitting space hidden in the bushes, Oh this called Lover’s Garden, not actually the part of the school. This is where…..where lovers…. love said I (why you stammered stupid) . So, that’s all there is about our school, you liked it? I loved it, Thanks It was the best school tour I ever had said Cindy. (that’s the best tour I’ve ever given), I said anytime.

She then left waving her hand and I froze but was able to wave my hand a little. It was the best day I had in while, I couldn’t stop thinking about her. We became friends the next day and best friends the day after, everything seemed so fast and unreal, I hardly noticed anyone in the school except her, we would be together all day, at times when she was not noticing I would stare at her as long as I could, I used to hate every guy to whom she even said Hi, though she seldom talked to anyone except me but I was jealous. One day we were sitting in cafeteria, and to one of my jokes she laughed so hard that she spilled juice all over me, she was saying Oh My God I am so sorry, but she was still laughing and I was lost in her laughter, It was the first time she noticed it but she ignored and told me to get myself cleaned up. I was feeling very nervous when she noticed me but It was lovely that she replied with a cute smile

Form the next day I started going to the nearby park so I could see her more. I was doing exercise vigorously and my actions suggested that I was making her notice me which she did and which was exactly what I wanted. She stopped and took a break from her run and asked me Do you come here everyday, I fumbled but I said yes, you know fitness regime (trying to be cool) then she went on running. I wanted to talk to her more but my My legs were not ready to take off but my heart insisted, It would be nice to have a running partner said my inner voice but another voice said What are you doing man, you can’t ever run like 1 mile, how are you going to keep up with her. I said yeah man you are right, From next day before even everyone woke up I had completed my run, just to be sure she didn’t notice me as she lived only 4 blocks away from my home. I was getting good at running and I wanted to run with her, which I did. One day she was just getting past me in the park, she would never mess up with her fitness routine for anyone but I built up mine and I went on with her matching her by stride to stride and I loved our little talks while running. I knew that I was in love with her but not as mad as following everything she did which I did but I was maintaining my fitness because of it and having nice time with her on the runs.

I started paying attention in my classes so I could make good notes so that I could share them with her and she didn’t have to talk to anyone for that. Yes I was mean but she was my girl. She used to care a lot for me as well, when I started running with her not that I matched her pace but she did with mine, I was good at taking notes but not good at revising them again she helped me with that. The moment which I still and remember and which I will never forget was when she came over my house to study and we were kind of helping each other with the notes, one of the pages flew because of the fan and she was trying to catch it. In that effort she fell over me and we were really up close, everything was just still for a while then our heads moved closer, and first my lower lip touched her’s and then our lips interlocked and we went on kissing for sometime. It just happened I didn’t even believed it did but I wanted that moment to last forever but it didn’t, she moved away for me and my lips, it looked like she also wanted to continue, she was smiling nervously and there was silence all around . How could I have said something when she was smiling like that, I will never forget that moment in which I fell in love with her more than ever, she said I should leave, I didn’t said anything and she left. I was just looking at her like a moron who didn’t even say goodbye but I should have. It was hardly five minutes had passed after she called me and said, Hey! Louis I wanted to say that ………….and she screamed like hell and her phone went off. I was devastated thinking about what had happened. I rushed on the way that lead to her home and I saw that a car had struck a tree there were notebooks and pages all over the road and I could see a hand holding a piece of paper, I ran as fast as I could and there was Cindy, Ohhh My God said l, there was blood all over her body and it was spilling on the road from the back of her head. Her one hand was struck under one tire and she could barely move. She gave me that piece of paper which she was holding which was the one which she was trying to catch in my Bedroom. She then told me sobbingly that she loved me more than anyone she’s ever been with. I was the one she would spent her life time with. I said I loved her too very much but only if I had stopped her, said it earlier none of this would have happened. She said that none of this was my fault ( but it was) and she turned her pain into a smile and reminded me of the time when we first went for school tour, she told me that she had a school tour before but she wanted the tour by me, she told me that she came to park hoping that she would find me and how she’s always loved me since that day we met. I was not able to stop my tears which were now falling on her face. I gave her a hug and said I love you and I will save you no matter what, she said I love you too… and I heard tires screeching on the road and the next moment a car came at a high speed hitting me Cindy and everything turned black and I woke up.

I was covered all in sweat and came to a realization that I had the best and worst dream of my life. I came out of bed and went for a walk to relax my mind and I was shocked at what I saw. The same girl from my dream was walking across the street and I was staring at her with my black face unable to move or say a word, I wanted to stop her and talk to her but as soon as I came out of my amusement she was gone. The next day I rushed to the school and to my classroom and saw her everywhere but like my dream she was not there, not only that day but I never saw her, maybe it was just an illusion when I saw her the second time across the street but I should’ve said it.